not that i forget

i've forgotten when is the last time i came and left my mark here. it shows how long i've written something. i guess no one will ever come to my blog again. anw i hope so. if no one reads this, it will be better. dont expect anyone to read anyway. so how i've been doing? i guess great? but i'm quite fed up with certain things.

why is it that when i do well in things, parents seem to just react normal like "ok/maintain your standard/improve more" yet when i just do average, they seem to over react like "oh must be your boyfriend/ u havent been studying lately/ shouldnt hang out so much". it's not like i completely have no expectations. not like i'm gonna be a delinquent. i just feel kinda pissed with their reaction sometimes. shouldnt have done so well in the first place. causing everyone to set a high expectation of me and in turn i feel stressed whenever i'm not up to their mark. people always say not to compete with others but just do better and compare for yourself but why cant my parents see that way.

then again, why is it that sometimes when i want to talk to some people. they give the impression that they didnt want to talk and when i ask them so, they will just say nothing/ u can chat with me anytime, share with me anything/ we can be close friends. however their actions or text says otherwise. yet these people were once very dear to me. i want to talk to them but they just want to shun away. it is like those movies where you are running and panting and you can see your destination yet you cant reach it. why do these people want to do this?

sometimes it seems like i've forgotten everything but it's just that i didnt want to remember cuz whats the point of remembering and make yourself feel so hurt
also, i think i'm weird,
i feel very cold and very hot sometimes. i really meant very. it can even be on the bus, in school, at home.
do you ever feel like u are falling backwards also? even though i'm sitting and yea, sitting on a hard solid ground but sometimes i've gotta feeling i'm falling backwards like the floor is tilting. i think it is a psychological problem? i read it somewhere but i wonder is it serious?

no more m'sia flying trip!

ytd, got back the $150 refund of the Malaysia flying trip at Senai. Darren said that the cancellation is partly due to the recent flying incidents and thus approval for flight experience cannot be granted. what my guess was is they didn't settle fast enough. such things happen always. also, i havent got back my $50 refund from the previous M'sia trip. they are always slow with money. not they. everyone and i dislike it.
anw, today was a day well spend too :)

gonna head out to Vivo soon. it's raining =/ made me feel like lazing at home instead.

explanation

There are times when we demand an explanation when an explanation really isn't possible - Book - Blink, Author Malcolm Gladwell pg.71

Shopping!!!!!

wowwwwwww i've made a hole in my mum's pocket!!! shopping day with my mum :) went to CityHall to buy my cosmetics which cost more than $300 bucks!! it's Shu Umera brand. and yea... first time did i realise that cosmetics cost so much!! a gay guy taught me the steps to put on the make up. he's good. i think gay guys really appreciate make up! for me, i don't give a damn. in fact, i feel better of without make up. but i got to put some to protect my face. he's smart too. somehow he knows that i dislike putting heavy makeup. he said "sporty people don't put much makeup". so agree with him. btw, Maggie saw me. didn't notice that she was there. Mag was working at a cosmetic booth. ate lunch at some ramen restaurant. doesn't taste that fantastic compared to the one at The Central. the portion is little too! anw, bought dress, nail polish, female box shorts sth like safety pants and it has tweety bird cartoon on it :( i want pooh!!

finally feel the anxiety for the upcoming piano exam. gotta pull up my socks!!

NEW STANDING SUSHI BAR OUTLET

on saturday evening, Howard opened his second Standing Sushi Bar outlet at Singapore Art Musuem, 8 Queen Street!! CONGRATULATIONS HOWARD :) feel happy for him!! the 'retired' part-timers went back to celebrate with him and his invited friends. regular customers, Howard friends and lal the chefs went to the new SSB outlet. it was a big day for Howard and a great day for everyone. feel happy for Howard that SSB had survived. SSB outlet at Raffles Place OUB centre did not close down like other outlets around the area. hopefully that more SSB outlet will be open. ALL THE BEST TO HOWARD!!

ytd, my uncle had his official housewarming. there were just too many ppl in such a teeny weeny space. though his house is a terrace. but no one went up. resulting in congestion and the first level was packed. =/ went early and left early. got nothing to do even if my family stayed on.
for F1 this year in Singapore, Alonso won again!! followed by Sebastien Vettel and Mark Webber? Hamilton was out for this race. awwww. anw i'm not a supporter of Hamilton so yea.. who cares.

going to shop with my mum at CityHall!! :) bye!!

EXHAUSTED

tiring. my eyes are shutting. wearing contacts feels so uncomfortable. =/ working for 2 consecutive days at 6am till around 2pm is killing me. the worse part is that i'm sleeping late cuz i went to seek fun after work.first time recieving my semester 2.1 results by SMS. i would say not bad. did improved. but no Z!!! :( sadness. oh well i hope next sem my results will improve and reach my target. had much fun at Tamp IKEA after work. :)

FOM  A
MGTAIRC  A
APADM  A
ALFOP  B+
ATSYS1  A
AISYS1  A
APEL  Pass

here's what Hector showed me.

egg-citing week

waoh waoh waoh. guess what crazy week i had!!! realized it has been a week since i last blogged.

16th
went to Universal Studios in Singapore. YOG volunteer appreciation day, hence the free ticket. queued for free F1 complementary ticket too. not sure when it will be coming. they said it will be mailed. but till now, i recieved none. anyway really enjoyed with SeokCheng and her friend, Serena or sth i cant rmb. i would definitely go back to Universal Studios again. perhaps few years down the road when there are new games. i've tried most of the main attractions and its really captivating.

17th
finally got my airport pass. got it done on the spot. however, got to complete a airport orientation training which i think was a waste of time!? most of the things thought are covered in my course somehow. the airport pass is great! there's a discount on certain items/ shops in the airport! great savings! ok.. sound like some thrifty person here... but i've been spending tonnes on food! :(

18th
had dental appointment. decided to put braces. dentist said no plucking of teeth was required, just merely aligning them. but it cost a bomb! =/ got to reconsider first!

19th
HAPPY BIRTHDAY STUART!!! my great friend birthday. not really great i would say. just that i've spend a huge amount of time knowing him and cumulated quite a large amount of unforgettable memories. ate dinner at Changi Village too! havent been there for quite some time. had a nice evening there :)

20th
celebrating an early 18th birthday for PeckYeng!!! ate dinner at Clarke Quay, HotStone with Chiltern, Nicole, Leon and of course the birthday girl. shared cost and bought her a white FOSSIL watch! Chilt plan failed. as usual!! he always do things in a way that cant fool others. just like how he cant tell a lie.

22th
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PECKYENG!!! OFFICIALLY 18!!! ~ ~ went down to NSRCC for P901 chalet!!! again, for the 3rd class chalet. the number of people staying over is getting lesser and lesser. i guess the enthusiasm of particiapting in the class chalet is going down. went down mainly cuz i paid for it. not because of anything else. missed the last shuttle bus out! told them (Chiltern, PeckYeng, Mostaq, Syafiqah) to walk faster. thinking that time is in their hands, they stroll =/ and so.. we MISSED the bus. saw the bus engine start up and drove away. chasing the bus was futile as it was too far away. out of desperation cuz i had JetQuay work at 6am, i flagged cars that came out of NSRCC. fortunately a BMW took pitty on us and drove us to Tanah Merah MRT. THANKS UNCLE!!! didnt copy down his license plate!!! THANKS A MILLION!!! i still rmb the BM is maroon in colour.
had my Philippines OCP jab too. both arm is aching :( right for tetanus. left for typhoid.
sorry to my parents. didn't celebrate mid autumn festival with them. :(

23th
first ever JetQuay job at 6 in the morning. killed me totally. didnt had a good night sleep. afraid that i would overslept. coupled with coming back late from chalet last night, my energy and brain awake level was at the extreme low. tmr having JQ shift at 6 again!!! arghh!!! i seriously dislike the way JQ handles stuff... too much to say and its confidential anyway. as least i got to protect my name! just a short note too. watched "Devil". quite a normal show. with a morale of the story. not terrifying enough. watched "Grown Up" after that!!! it's a fabulous comedy. only people who watched US drama or comedy would understand. a lot of in-depth jokes. ahhhh better get some sleep. guess gonna get chronic fatigue anytime soon :( :( :(